i am a bird now

i wish i could
take this feeling
wrap it in a ball
make string
out of it
tie my mouth shut.

never kiss you again:
want to.

i wish i could freeze the world.
time.
life:
live it until i am born again.

i want a thousand lives,
loves.
over and over.
feel like it will last forever
and then, it does.


my apartment is
a
l
l

m
i
n
e

.

i feel the loneliness of life set in.
sink into my bones till
the bottom of my tongue
gets heavy.

and falls apart.
one piece at a time.

xxx.